Pent Up Orgasms

The kind that make you say “Thank you God for this life” Over and over and over through out the rest of your day. The kind that bring with it a surge of energetic release and emotional tears for what seems to be no reason at all. The kind that bring creativity as a flow of words to write about the experience.

We were on a family vacation for a month. One month of no moaning during orgasms meant a month of being so disconnected with my own voice. With my own creativity. With my most powerful self. My wild self that is at one with the wilderness of Mother Nature herself.

Thoughts had so much more power over my body than I could have. So I prayed. I prayed and I prayed to be back in connection with my body. To listen to her cues mainly so I could stop masking the deep emptiness I felt while away from myself, my space, and my orgasmic nature for a whole 30 days.

Today, we finally got to have resourced sex. The kind of sex that was energetic for the one playing the masculine and slow for the one playing the feminine. Every moan released a piece of me that was craving to be heard. Her power so strong. Her ecstasy so bright. Revolution was her essence. She was not scared. She was safe. She took up space in the beautiful body that she had. She was free.

In a world where a woman’s freedom is a threat to the current patriarchal society, Pleasure Is Activism. Orgasms are a direct “fuck you” to the fatphobic, sexist, and oppressive systems in control.

Today, this orgasm saved me from their voices I’ve unconsciously internalized. Today, my body is free. ❤️

Questions for contemplation:

What is your relationship with pleasure?

Do you feel more powerful and in control of your world after enjoying your orgasmic nature?

What kind of pleasure (sexual or non sexual) can you enjoy today to add more empowerment to your life?